Mental Health Week
Not a good week really in some regards, others, ok. Went home early from work on Tuesday. Swore in answer to a question (it was a stupid, or at least unwise question) that my boss asked me. No real repurcussions but men just don't understand and then I started crying. That was the morning, waited until it was reasonably ok then took off.
I figured I was subconsciousley very stressed, had a really bad night sleep before, went to bed, slept fine then woke up and was awake for 2.5 hours. felt like my mind hadn't slept at all, 'cos the thoughts i had when i went to bed continued in my dreams, and were with me as i woke, and laid awake then i started making all these grand plans that seemed great in the middle of the night, (not really out of the question though.....). Bad day dreaming episodes in those moments just before one loses complete consciousness, dreamt that my favourite cat who died tragically came back to me, was crawling up towards me underneath the doona, but then it was only a toy, and i was really upset and i woke up crying, but even before that i had been wondering if my crying/moaning/weeping was actually happening to my body or just in my dream, which kinda indicates i knew i was dreaming but it still upset me nonetheless (it does upset me i try not to think about Her or i cry).
Anyway, joined a health club/gym place that does alternative stuff, like Pilates, Yoga, Reformer, Bounce, Bellydancing, and Meditation.
While I may be stressed about work, and study and all the universe, and feel I need to spend all my timw studying, I am not doing any excercise, which i was doing previousley, and my body, and I believe my Mind has suffered.
So, this will hopefully improve the situation, bit of meditation for my mind and spirit, exercise for the mind and body.
That will hopefully improve my motivations, energy levels, mental state, learning ability etc, though I do fret about the less time to actually do the uni work. Funny that, considering i have spent the evening on the Net, procrastinating away......
I hope to have a better week next week, which i should do because my stress cause at work has been resolved as of yesterday (because of me and my brilliance). And i solved a major problem of my coworker's (again, because of my brilliance).
And I am closer to setting up my aquarium. ( because of the whole fishie thing and the health club fees etc, and the fees for a course I am doing tmw it has continued being a now huuuuuge spending week).
But if it improves my life ATM, then it will have been worth it.
I hope.
I figured I was subconsciousley very stressed, had a really bad night sleep before, went to bed, slept fine then woke up and was awake for 2.5 hours. felt like my mind hadn't slept at all, 'cos the thoughts i had when i went to bed continued in my dreams, and were with me as i woke, and laid awake then i started making all these grand plans that seemed great in the middle of the night, (not really out of the question though.....). Bad day dreaming episodes in those moments just before one loses complete consciousness, dreamt that my favourite cat who died tragically came back to me, was crawling up towards me underneath the doona, but then it was only a toy, and i was really upset and i woke up crying, but even before that i had been wondering if my crying/moaning/weeping was actually happening to my body or just in my dream, which kinda indicates i knew i was dreaming but it still upset me nonetheless (it does upset me i try not to think about Her or i cry).
Anyway, joined a health club/gym place that does alternative stuff, like Pilates, Yoga, Reformer, Bounce, Bellydancing, and Meditation.
While I may be stressed about work, and study and all the universe, and feel I need to spend all my timw studying, I am not doing any excercise, which i was doing previousley, and my body, and I believe my Mind has suffered.
So, this will hopefully improve the situation, bit of meditation for my mind and spirit, exercise for the mind and body.
That will hopefully improve my motivations, energy levels, mental state, learning ability etc, though I do fret about the less time to actually do the uni work. Funny that, considering i have spent the evening on the Net, procrastinating away......
I hope to have a better week next week, which i should do because my stress cause at work has been resolved as of yesterday (because of me and my brilliance). And i solved a major problem of my coworker's (again, because of my brilliance).
And I am closer to setting up my aquarium. ( because of the whole fishie thing and the health club fees etc, and the fees for a course I am doing tmw it has continued being a now huuuuuge spending week).
But if it improves my life ATM, then it will have been worth it.
I hope.
posted by Bright Tiger | 7:39 pm
5 Comments:
Hope things pick up for you and that you start feeling better soon.
May the fish bring you luck, Tiger -erm, if of course you don't eat them *wicked*
Fishes are always wonderful to have in a home, in a life.
It's so hard to find time for mental/physical health stuff. I still haven't figured out how to do it.
Hmmm. Maybe I should be exercising right now instead of reading blogs. Naaaaah.
So, yes? It has been a week. How is the yoga treating you?
Rian hates, more than anything, stress dreams.
well, i've done a yoga class, a bellydancing class, box, skip, meditation and a fundamentals class (pilates basics)over the last fortnight.
I feel like I am not doing enough uni, or enough excercise, but at least I am improving in the activity side.
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