A Small Step...

Well, I took a deep breath, shut my eyes and posted off a form to enrol in (a different) course. This one is to gain prerequesites for another course, that which is on a pinnacle so high I can hardly fathom it. I can always not do it, (waste yet more $$$), to quit, to decide it's not right, not for me, too hard, I'm not able, too dumb, something else is better, something else is is easier, to fail, to give up, to run away and bury my head in the sand of.......averageness. Of adequacy.

Too long away to tell right now. I have to do 6 subjects in the next year if I want to start 2007, and while working full time that will be a major mountain to climb in itself. Or I can wait another year, and apply for 2008. Seems so long away, and time is ticking, life is ebbing away, another year older....hopefully wiser?

It's taken me nearly 3 months just to decide to do this course. I could see it as wasted opportunity, but what is the point in that. If I want to beat myself I should go and get a stick, and have bruises to show for it.