Indecision

I feel my indecisiveness is because of a complete awareness of what I may miss by choosing one thing over another.

I want to do it all. And I want to choose the Right one. The one that I am meant to do. The one that will fulfill me, and leave me no regrets, and an encompassing feeling of completeness and meaning and destiny. Not too hard to ask for is it??

Perhaps I strive too high?

Why aim low?

As is explained in one (excellent) novel, every action, every choice influences the world. Making one decision impacts on all the future possibilities. By choosing to buy one bit of bread means that another person can not buy that bread, and they must go without. It effects their life and decisions. And by choosing to not make the purchase allows the next person to eat that bread.

The thing is I already knew that before I read it.

My indecisiveness is my large, expansive brain being crippled by the reponsibilty it feels towards all those possibilities. I want all those possibilities, those futures. I see in every decision I make, all those threads of futures that now will not be, because of one choice.

What if I make the wrong one?

So perhaps it is a fear of failure thing instead??

Maybe.

I don't know.